A Cry in the Dark

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

a winter poem....

I found this beautiful winter poem and thought it might be a comfort to you. It was to me, and it's very well written. I hope you enjoy it because it's the best piece of English literature I've seen in quite a while....

a poem by Abigail Elizabeth McIntyre

SHIT, It's Cold!

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Friday, February 23, 2007

thank goodness it's almost over....

This term is just kicking my butt. I have two more weeks and one more essay to go....

I used to think I enjoyed writing. Now, I'm just not as certain. Maybe it's the fact that the essays have been on assigned topics. Maybe it's all the requirements. I had dreams last night about my topic, dang it!

Two more weeks....

Two more weeks....

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Sunday, February 18, 2007

what is it about that posting?????

I have one posting that keeps receiving spam like there was no tomorrow! Does anyone know why that would be? There aren't any phrases that are being searched from that one, so I'd love to know why I've cleaned out at least 10 spam comments from that one post.


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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

dreaming of snow....

At the gym yesterday, we all were talking about this storm that is supposed to be coming. Who would have thought that we all would be WANTING it to snow? And I don't just want a few little flakes.... I want it to SNOW! I want it to be so bad that I'm stuck in the house for a couple of days!

Bring it on, Mother Nature!

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Friday, February 09, 2007

you say your pussy likes being spanked?

Then you should enjoy this....

spanked pussy

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Thursday, February 08, 2007

how my blog got its name.....

You know that feeling of being so disconnected from the world that no one would miss you if you were gone? When you question the purpose of being here? Why keep trying?

When I feel like that, it always seems so dark. The sun doesn’t shine as brightly, the colors of the world seem muddy. I feel as though I have no voice and my words are unheard. No matter what I say, it is ignored just as the buzzing of a gnat is not noticed.

When I began this blog, I was going through one of those times. Some of you may remember the original version, the one I destroyed. It was my intention to walk away completely and never look back. I’m glad I didn’t.

This blog was my cry in the dark. It was my effort to find my voice and have it be heard again. Even though the world looks much brighter today, I’m leaving the name as a reminder to myself. If you cry out loud enough, hard enough, and long enough, someone will come to offer you a hand back to the world.

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Monday, February 05, 2007

10 Ways to Survive a Stressful Job

I can't take credit for this one. It was on msn.com a couple of months ago. Since I pull it out every little bit as a reminder to myself, I figured I would share it.

Larry supervises the emergency room of an inner-city hospital. The environment is stressful and chaotic, yet he always appears centered and performs at a consistently high level. He is the epitome of composure -- displaying evenness of mind regardless of circumstances.

"Leaders must exhibit an air of confidence in spite of what is going on around them," says Commander Matt Eversmann, a military hero who served as one of the characters in the war movie "Black Hawk Down." "Even if you don't have an immediate solution to a particular event, you have to keep your composure."

While most of us don't deal in the life or death situations found in the emergency room or on the battlefield, we all experience some type of stress at work. Be it a difficult boss or looming deadline, here are 10 ways to stay calm when your job is anything but:

1. Give Yourself a Pep Talk. Part of being composed is knowing that you can handle whatever is thrown at you. Compile a list of your skills and accomplishments to remind yourself how capable you are.

2. Breathe. When stress levels rise, most of us unknowingly stop breathing for several seconds or more. This propels feelings of anxiety, anger and frustration, causing us to lose perspective and overreact. Smooth, steady breathing through the nose is one of the easiest ways to activate calm energy.

3. De-Clutter Your Work Area. Take a few minutes to organize and clear your work surface before you go home at night so that you start each day with a clean slate. Not only will you feel more focused and in control, you'll look it, too.

4. Think Positive, Loving Thoughts. A decade of study at the W.M. Keck Laboratory for Functional Brain Imaging and Behavior led by neuroscientist Richard Davidson found that choosing your specific thoughts and emotions can permanently change the working of your brain. When participants practiced feeling love and compassion, their brains went into action, connecting and building new circuitry at high speed, making them more effective and better able to cope in crisis.

5. Get Enough Sleep. A National Consumers League survey found that about 60 percent of people who report feeling anxious don't get enough sleep, and according to Canada's National Sleep Foundation, about a third of workers attribute their on-the-job mistakes to lack of sleep. Seven hours is the recommended minimum. Several studies show that eight to 10 hours can be even more beneficial.

6. Back Up. If you work on a computer, avoid frustration by making it part of your routine to back up your work each day. To be really safe, store a backup copy away from your desk in case of fire or theft.

7. Get Religion. Research shows that people who believe in and regularly pray to a higher power are better able to cope with crisis and have lower blood pressure than those who use alternate stress relievers.

8. See the Light. Instead of taking another trip to the coffee station, go for a walk outside. Five minutes of sunshine can clear your head and make that unpleasant altercation with a co-worker seem a whole lot less important.

9. Move It. Regular exercise bolsters brain-nurturing chemicals, producing serotonins and improving your reaction time, creativity and memory retention. A study at Middlesex University in England found that participants scored higher on a creativity test after engaging in 25 minutes of aerobic exercise. Likewise, a University of Illinois study found that inactive individuals increased their memory and ability to multitask by more than 15 percent after participating in a walking program.

10. Go With the Flow. Don't think of every setback as a catastrophe or spend time worrying about what might happen. Accept things for what they are and focus on controlling your efforts -- not the outcome. By devoting your full attention to the situation at hand, you will feel more relaxed and in control and the future will take care of itself.

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Thursday, February 01, 2007

nope.... nope..... nope.....

I start to write, then throw it away. I can't say that. It wouldn't be right.

I'm feeling so out of sorts lately, and I don't know why. Well, I do know why, but there's nothing to be done about it. OK. There are things that can be done about it, but it's just not going to happen. (Do I have you as confused yet as I'm feeling?)

I know it's just the timing. The time of year. His work schedule. My work schedule. My school schedule. His kids. It's timing. All about the timing.

I hate it that I need him so much. But I love needing him. (And I think he appreciates it most of the time....) I hate how blah my life feels when he's not in it. But he is in it, just not as much as I would like. Then again, he's never been able to be in my life as much as I'd like. So why am I struggling so much with this now?

It almost feels as though the lack of work stress means a void has been created that insists on finding something to fill it. I haven't felt well all week and I'm still not sleeping well at night. And I know that is feeding this dissatisfaction I'm feeling. There's really nothing wrong, but it's all wrong.


Maybe it's just the weather....

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