A Cry in the Dark

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

i'm sorry....

I know I've been a bit inactive lately. I'm struggling, in so many ways. There are words, but I can't find them. The emotions that roil in my gut refuse to be identified. I can't explain them and I can't describe them.

It's as if there is a huge, mixed-up ball of yarn there. All the feelings are individual strands that are tangled and knotted together. As soon as I pull on one, several more start to pull out.

I don't remember ever feeling so unsettled for such a long period of time. It's almost as if I were seriously depressed, but it's not depression. It's anger, upset, frustration, fear, and dissatisfaction, all mixed up together. It's my normal optimistic and positive outlook being clouded over every day. Every time I think I've identified the why, it shifts to something else.

I'm so tired of feeling like this. I truly hope I come back to myself soon!

Posted by WistfulWench :: 3:46 PM :: 3 comments