A Cry in the Dark

Sunday, April 09, 2006

*grumble, grumble, grumble*

This one has been posted. It's been changed to draft. It was posted again. It was draft again. I think it's going to stay posted. Thank you to my angel for helping me think this through today....I think a little reminder of my childish behavior might be good for me.

The little girl inside of me is screaming right now. “It’s not fair!”

It’s not. It just isn’t. OK. It’s not fair, but it is right. Do I have to like it just because it’s right, though?

I’m being punished. It doesn’t happen very often, but when it does, I hate it.

The part I hate the most is when he walks away, telling me that it is part of my punishment and not letting me know when it will be finished. Being forced to dwell on it, being reminded of why it’s happening, just makes it worse. And he always gives me some activity to do that refuses to let me ignore the fact that I’m being punished! GRRRRRR!

So, here I sit, frustrated and uncomfortable. This is the worst punishment I’ve ever received from him. Ever! I truly don’t think my infraction was that serious, but I am being forced to see that he feels it was. *grumble, grumble, grumble*

I know that in an hour or two, I will see it differently. Well, let me re-state that. I know that an hour or two AFTER my punishment is over, I will see it differently. I already know I do NOT want to make this mistake again! Not ever!

Please, please, please just come back so this can be over! Please? I’m sorry and I won’t do it again! I promise!

Posted by WistfulWench :: 1:30 PM :: 0 comments