A Cry in the Dark

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

understanding why....

I try very hard to act in a manner he finds pleasing. It’s not always easy and I find myself frequently asking him that awful question. “Why?”

I don’t mean to be disrespectful when I ask it. It has a bad habit of slipping out when I least expect it. Add to the mix the fact that I find it so much EASIER to follow his instructions when I understand the purpose behind them.

Is “Why” such a bad question to ask? Isn’t part of pleasing him learning what he wants from me? How do I learn if I don’t understand how his mind works? How do I find joy in my submission when what he’s asking is something that I really don’t want to do? Do I just take pride in the fact that I did it? Do I ignore how it makes me feel or how I may look?

Posted by WistfulWench :: 4:11 PM :: 2 comments