A Cry in the Dark

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

ask and ye shall receive....

Are you comfortable asking for what you want?  What if what you want is something you’re not certain he’s interested in?  How to you ask for it then?

There are times I want to ask him to give me pain.  I’m always hesitant to do that, though.  I enjoy the pain, but not really for the sake of hurting.  It somehow brings a focus to the scene.  There is nothing else in my mind at that moment but taking what he is giving.  Accepting it.  Embracing it.  Knowing that every bit of his attention is on me.  Not knowing how far he is going to push it or when it will stop.  Incapable of thought, as every fiber of my being gets caught up in sensations....

Is it something I need?  Not as much and not in the same way that I need his gentleness.  His strength and guidance give me so much more than I thought I could ever have in relationship.

What if it’s not really the pain that I’m wanting?  What if it’s humiliation?  Anal?  Fisting?  Objectification?  Is it even the activity that’s important?  How do I know if it’s the scene or his absolute attention I desire in that moment?

How do you learn to ask for what you want?  Or should you ask?  Is a “good” submissive supposed to only accept what her Master is willing to give?

Posted by WistfulWench :: 3:49 AM :: 3 comments