A Cry in the Dark

Thursday, August 16, 2007

it’s different....

He and I have talked about the things I’ve been blogging about. In a recent conversation, He said that it’s different to read about it than to talk about it.

I have to agree. It’s different when I write about it. A single posting could be a compilation of days, weeks, or months of conversations. How do I find the one word or phrase that summarizes all the emotions? Why can’t I gather my thoughts into a comprehensive posting?

So much has been happening. It’s good, but I feel like my mind is more scattered than it’s been for years. Old feelings roiling up and insisting on being dealt with. Fears I thought were put to rest rising up again. Anticipation that can be almost be painful. It’s as though layer after layer of who I am is being slowly peeled away, exposing the root that is me.

I try, so hard, to leave the past behind me when I am with Him. Fortunately, He is understanding and supportive. This is a NEW relationship. Tainting it with the past will doom it to failure....

Posted by WistfulWench :: 4:48 PM :: 2 comments