A Cry in the Dark

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

where does time go when you're not looking?

I didn't realize, until today, that I haven't been back to my blog for quite a while. I'm so sorry about that! I have thought of several things to write about, but haven't finished a single one of those thoughts....

(What else is new?)

Yes, I'm doing well. Last month was a blur.... Struggling through the final weeks of my marketing class, a deepening relationship with a new Dominant, going to Oklahoma to spend a week with my family, and the (seemingly required) work issues that insist on popping up.

I think I've hesitated to post some of what has been going on in my head as I suspect my ex-Master still reads my blogs. The last thing in the world I want is for him to feel as though I'm rubbing salt into his wounds. The fact that our relationship ended is just that. A fact. It's no one's fault. There's no blame to be attached to either of us. It just couldn't BE any longer. While I'm still sad about it, I also have turned my face and thoughts to the wonderful new opportunity that has crossed my path.

What is it they say? Love finds you when you least expect it? While this is not (yet) the same depth of emotion I had previously, I do have to admit that I am sliding down that slope again. The dialogue in my head confuses me and makes me anxious. Thank goodness I have friends who are willing to listen to it and understand! I can't thank you enough for being there for me and listening to me ramble on (and on and on and on!) about my fears. Thank you for reminding me to live in THIS moment. And thank you for helping me find the courage to let it all go. Let go of the past. Let go of the fear. Let go of the control I think I have to have right now.

Posted by WistfulWench :: 5:08 PM :: 5 comments

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