A Cry in the Dark

Saturday, January 06, 2007

a needed confirmation.....

It’s been a really rough week. Today, I was in a downward spiral. Why do I try? Why do I fight? It would be easier to just give up, walk away, and try to begin again.

He saw that. Mere moments into our conversation tonight and He knew that all was not right in my world. There was no hiding from the discussion, that was clear. I would not be allowed to hide from the subject, dodge the issues, or change the topic. His decision was binding and He told me that. In terms I could not deny.

I am truly blessed. There is no denying that. He knows me. He does not allow me to hide the things from him that I wish He was not burdened with. He will not allow me to carry those concerns alone. Words elude me. Tears come to my eyes. The agony of the last couple of days has thrown me into a depressive loop I could not break out of. His words, His instructions won’t allow me to stay there. The strength He shares, and the love He offers, gives me the ability to put it into a manageable perspective.

I wish He were closer. At times, I feel as though I am a burden to Him with the need I have for His guidance. Every time, He knows exactly what to say, what to do to pull me out of it.

Even though I could not physically feel His touch tonight, He gave me that confirmation I needed. I am His. Completely. Totally. Absolutely.

Thank you, sweetest Master. Thank you for knowing the mind of your slave. Thank you for understanding what she needs. Thank you for your compassion. Thank you for your love.

Thank you, my most adored One.

Posted by WistfulWench :: 10:34 PM :: 4 comments

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